It is so hard sometimes to understand why people make the choices that they do.  All I see is a small part of the reality, and so it is comforting that God sees the whole entire huge picture. Not only that, but He sees my future too.  He knows how it will all work out for me, and He promises it is peace and hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

So how do I move on from this spot? How do I put one foot in front of the other and take that next step when everything is so different now? I guess it just happens.  The clock keeps on ticking along and somehow everything just moves forward.  Everything changes but He stays the same.  This I can count on.  This is my hope and my trust.  Because when I am falling down in a tearful mess, so confused and empty, He is my rock, my strong tower, my shelter, my refuge, my defense, my salvation, and so much more.  So I do not need to ask those questions, because He will take care of it for me. And yet it is still oh so very painful.

And my part in this? I will agree with David's word in Psalm 15 and speak the truth in my heart.  I will swear to my own hurt and will not change.  Because I must do what I know is right.  And the right thing is to follow my God and not what anyone else tells me.  Even if it hurts.

After all, at the end of every day He is all that I have.  Everything else will fade away.  But He will never change.

Lord, hold me by my right hand.  Guide me with your counsel, and afterward receive me to glory.  Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You.  My flesh and my heart fail, but You are the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Psalm 73.